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SO yea!! I havent updated in so long! Im sorry guys. So allot has happened seince the last time i posted even though that was like forever ago but yea. The guy situation is all cleared up. Im over Jeff. So far over him. Yea. Thats right. Donny and I are together now. We ar eboth really happy. I havent ever dated someone like him before. He is the most amazing boyfriend. I cant emagion what would have happened if i haddnt found him and stayed with Jeff. But the past is the past after all for a reason. I had to go through that because it made me stronger. It showed me who my real friends were and showed me what I really wanted in a relationship. He will always be my friend but it wont ever be the same as it was before.

School is going really well. My Bio grade could be better but hey... hopefully it can get it up to where I want it. I have made lots of knew freshmen friends and they are prety awesome even though they dont know how to navigate yet and cant understand the concepts of being at the bottom of the foodchain...

Over all I am really happy right now. I miss all of my old friends cause its winter carnival so its wierd to not have them arround. But they are still with me in my heart. Im glad that Valentines Day is over. It was awesome to be with Donny that day but it was still hard because I was thinking about melissa a whole lot. Shes still very close to me and her death is still a very open wound for me. It will never really heal. but I know shes right here with me from day to day and that I have to stay strong for her. Its cool like that.

So here I am haning out at Kailahs house... I am kinda bored at the moment. Lol. Yea she and her dad are outside doing the chores involveing the horses. Josiah put in some ACDC before he left to go work on the vehicle that he is currently working on. So I am sitting here being the online blogger that I am. I know that I havent posted any real entries in like a really long time so I figured that I would just update and get some thaugbhts out. Yea. Thats it.
So I am so conflustrated with life right at this current point in time. Nothing really seems to be new or suprising any more. I am so wrapped up in swim, school, church, attempting to have a social life, and musical stuff that I have lost time just to sit and be quiet. I haddnt played guitar in two weeks until last night when I finished rearanging my room and had actual space to do it in. I ended up comming up with two new tunes to develope into eventual songs. That was cool. Sunday I sat down and drew some pics. That was fun also. Soon I have to get in contact with Donny and figure out the band schedual. I have to start practicing for District 3 so that I memorise the 5 pieces that I need to memorise.
That and I so want to have him back. I am sure you can probably figure it out. If you cant then oh well you will just have to think about it long and hard. I cant explain why I want him back but I do. I was not with him all that long really but its just wierd seeing him and not having him really as part of my life anymore. We are still friends and we still talk and stuff but its just different you know? It will all figure its self out in the end... I hope...

You are most like Raven. Quiet and usually soft
spoken, you don't like crowds and can be
slightly gothic. You try to repress your
emotions for one reason or another but one of
your most powerful emotions is your anger. Your
temper sometimes gets the best of you and when
that happens those in your way would wish they
weren't. You seem somewhat creepy to others and
you earn a few odd stares but who cares? You
aren't an outdoors person and avoid venturing
outside when you can. You are generally the
smart one and maybe not by trying to, the most
cynical and sarcastic of the bunch which can be
good or bad. You don't like anyone invading
your privacy and you don't seem to be all that
social. But for what it's worth you can be
quite handy in a tough situation. You are drawn
to the darkness or night most of the time. You
appear mysterious and/or potentially dangerous
at times and not everyone trusts you right
away.


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Super Powers
Telepathic green aliens - Superman leaping tall buildings - Rambo against an army - such is the stuff of popular fiction. But there's a creature with truly exceptional powers. And it's you!

Like no other creature on earth - there are many wonderful things you can do!

* Change - create new opportunities for yourself.
* Learn new alternatives, gain insight as you think things through.
* Benefit from past experience - make the future far better than the past.
* Communicate your ideas to others - express yourself through kind words, art, writing and meaningful activities.
* Use teamwork for long-term projects, in mutually beneficial ways.
* Take initiative - move your life in whole new directions.
* Innovate new things where nothing before existed.
* Be creative and playful - make your challenges easier.

Yes, humans have truly great powers. We can change our entire planet - as we already have, for better and worse.

We Americans are privileged with great wealth and opportunity. Let's make truly good use of all this, for the benefit of all.

To love and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides.

Never pretend to a love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command.

To love and win is the best thing. To love and lose, the next best.

To love deeply in one direction makes us more loving in all others.

So long as we are loved by others I should say that we are almost indispensable; and no man or woman is useless while he has a friend.

Love is blind; friendship closes its eyes.

Never live in the past but always learn from it.

He who knows all the answers has not yet been asked all the questions.

The wisest mind has something yet to learn.

The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, worry about the future, or anticipate troubles but to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly.

Seek the wisdom of the ages, but look at the world through the eyes of a child.

Better to light one small candle than to curse the darkness.

The heart is wiser than the intellect.

The beginning of wisdom is found in doubting; by doubting we come to the question, and by seeking we may come upon the truth.

Experience is a wonderful thing. It enables you to recognize a mistake when you make it again.

A short saying often contains much wisdom.

Wisdom is knowledge, rightly applied.

Thses are just some quotes at I found at this websight http://www.heartsandminds.org/quotes/quotes.htm... there are many other topics to search through. Go there. You may just find something that inspires you as these did to me.